The run that wasn't...but not a complete fail.

Let's focus on the positives, shall we?  I did begin my day with 20 minutes of strength training and even bench pressed 65 pounds, doing 3 sets of 7-9 reps.  I did do an hour of spinning, which resulted in a lovely puddle of sweat under my bike.  I did attend Muscle Fusion X this afternoon, toughing my way through another rigorous workout, complete with (almost) 60 jump squats onto a step 6 levels high (that's about 2 feet) - holy crap.

I also got to spend the day with my husband, working out together, then shopping for a work luncheon he is in charge of tomorrow.  We had also planned to do a training run of about 9 miles for our half marathon with a running group this evening, but that is where the "I dids" end.

Because along with all of the other things I did today, I also spent quite a bit of time feeling bloated, crampy, a little tired and lamenting the fact that all of my clothes felt especially tight and uncomfortable.  I allowed myself a little pity-party, brooding over self-berating thoughts like how sick I am of my little tummy pouch that relentlessly hangs around and makes my workout pants not fit right, and the jiggle of extra skin and fat on my otherwise strong thighs, that doesn't seem to be affected in the least by all of the exercise on the planet or a Clean-eating lifestyle for going on 3 months now.

So when it came time to get ready to meet up with the group to go on our run, I did something that I rarely do - I chose not to run.  I chose to spend the evening with my sweet husband watching the 49'ers game at Buffalo Wild Wings, enjoying some good food and distraction while soaking in all the loving and supportive compliments he showered over me.

This evening, I'm feeling a little less defeated.  I know that change takes time and that I need to stay focused and consistent if I want to see results.  Still, I am also starting to realize that sometimes - just occasionally - it's also beneficial to the body, mind and spirit to just take a little break.  And I'm pretty sure my legs are happy I chose not to run because they have been screaming at me all afternoon from that Muscle Fusion class and all the lunges we did!